One Chapter Ends Another Begins

The biggest chapter of our life so far is over. Our time in Albuquerque has finally come to an end. These last 3 weeks have been filled with a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I never thought the day would arrive; but on Friday, we will drive out of Albuquerque for the last time. We will be back for visits, but saying it this way sounds way more dramatic.

I thought we would be here for a couple of years max. I never thought in 2006 that we would live here for almost two decades. When we moved here it was just Kayla and me. We didn’t know a single soul. We were forced to forge new relationships. After all these years, looking back it was paving the way for what we would do today. We didn’t have any family in Albuquerque. So we had to make a new family, and now today as we get ready to leave we are leaving our family all over again.

Each chapter of our lives paves the way for the next.

When tragedy struck in our lives we had no one but each other. Kayla and I had 6 miscarriages. Each one of them was heartbreaking. We tried to have children for 5 years. During those 5 years, we had our first three miscarriages. We were devastated. We didn’t know if we would ever be able to have children. We would go home at night and sit there depressed. No matter what was going on we could never escape these feelings of sadness and fear. Sadness over our loss. Fear that we might never have children.

I was angry. Angry that I couldn’t help my wife. Angry that this was even happening to us. I remember one day I was in my office praying and I just started telling God how angry I was at Him. How could God let this happen to us? How could He leave us hanging like this? I never really realized how angry I was at God until that day. When I came to this realization I remembered that God didn’t do this to us. I remembered that in this world we would have trouble. God never promised anything bad would not happen to us, but He did promise that He would never leave us. I remember as I sat there alone in my office crying that a peace came over me. I repented and thanked God for who He was. Maybe we would never have children, but I knew God would see us through this season and that He would never leave us hanging.

A few months later we found out we were pregnant with twins. Now we have 4 beautiful children. God is faithful.

One thing that Kayla and I learned during that season was that because we did not have anyone else to rely on it drove us closer and closer. We only had each other. We were the only ones that understood what the other was going through. It solidified our marriage on a whole ‘nother level.

After God healed our broken hearts we shared our story and began to open our lives up to the people around us. We developed strong relationships. The people of Legacy became our family.

Here is the thing I learned as God saw us through that season; I can have faith that no matter what season we face…He will see us through.

As this chapter ends and another one begins, I know beyond all shadow of a doubt that God will see us through because He’s spent 16 and a half years preparing us and growing us for this new season.